I feel infinite.: Archive

Jan 26th

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And for a brief second there while walking home, I felt invincible. It’s a weird feeling to have when you’re so young, but it’s something that I’ve been told by ever adult I’ve ever known. Teenagers think that they are immune to everything. And it’s true. We think that we can live through the cancers and the apocalypses completely unscathed. We think when...

Jan 20th

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I asked my friend a question today: Do you want to be in high school still when the world ends? It applies to her and to me. I’m a bit of a slacker, and it’s not even as if I’m unaware of that fact. There’s a lot that I wish I could have done, that I should have done/should do that I am going to regret not doing if I die this year. What’s the likelihood of the...

Jan 18th

Snow. I was watching the news, and a woman started to complain about a white Halloween. Apparently she has never had one before in her whole long life. Which actually surprised me because I’ve been waiting for the snow to fall. Every year it’s different, and I hope that I don’t jinx it or anything. I remember getting dressed up as cows and pumpkins and ninja turtles (Raphael...

Oct 30th

Work is Work

Woah. You’re that chick from McDonald’s. That’s correct. I am that chick from McDonald’s. Formerly known as That Chick. I guess that’s cool. It’s not like I have a name or anything. (Michelle.) S’all good. Now I am working full time overnights at a job I don’t exactly mind too much. And therein lies the problem. When you grow to accept things as...

Jul 31st

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In a land not too far away from us but not too close, lived a young man in a small village called Vigenour.The small man, named David loved cars. He loved all motor vehicles really, but cars was what he really liked was his special red car called Betty.David would drive Betty every day, three times, just like his meals. He’d get up, and drive his car all over the island.Have his breakfast,...

Mar 15th

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Nov 11th

Hi there. Hello.

I don’t mean to get sappy. I’m not saying I hate sap, but it’s a little embarrassing. Especially when the sap that you have is so overly sap that it doesn’t even leak from the tree. Stupid boys. Have you ever been outside during the first snow of the year? There’s something so serene about being outside in the middle of the night with slow frozen rain coming from all...

Nov 2nd

Oh Jake

Me: Hey Jake. I’m sorry I didn’t get to see you before I left but since I didn’t I want to say that I’ll miss you. :) I’m going to try and get onto msn and all of that good stuff so, when I do we’ll talk. If I don’t then have a great day. Keep ya head up nigz. I hope your summer stays stellar too. Love you a whoooole bunch! See you in school. -Mielle ...

Aug 28th

July 10/10

Darling I am tired… This morning ——— dropped by —-’s, and I realize I talk to her when I need her. I only ever need her once in a while. I’m so damn greedy. Being a Buddist is out of the question. Yes, we fooled around, but not like I wanted to. I know. “Oh-kay Michelle.” Honestly, I was quite content with lying on her, in her, with her and...

Aug 17th

July 9/10

Sorry Jeff, I had to. I know that I’ll never ever do this notebook justice like you could. And I’m sorry that you’re not even going to be given the chance to. I’m going to try though. Not for your sake, but for mine. - Michelle D ♥ [same day] Things change year by year as others stay the same. A year ago, during the yearly bomber season too, Lynsay and I were walking...

Aug 17th

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Aug 17th

All I want to hear..

Is something to make me feel better. I don’t want to hear that the way you do things is different than I do things. I want to hear that the way I feel isn;t the fucking dramatic bullshit I feel like it is. I wish that when I told someone that my sister said she didn’t love me tonight in a fit of rage that it was okay to feel like I want to burn from the inside out. I wish that when...

Aug 17th

Scratch off what you have done.

Scratch off what you have done. Graduated High School. Kissed someone. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time with out sleep. Lied to someone. Snorted cocaine. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college level course. Been...

Aug 14th

My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2010-3-14) →

Norah Jones (633) Jenny Owen Youngs (127) Regina Spektor (41) This Providence (40) Joshua Radin (40) Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz

Jul 16th

Letter to facebook.

Why are you deactivating: [X] I get too many emails, invitations, and requests from Facebook.[ ]I have another Facebook account.[X]I spend too much time using Facebook.[ ]I don’t understand how to use Facebook.[X]I don’t find Facebook useful.[X]I have a privacy concern.[X]This is temporary. I’ll be back.[X]I don’t feel safe on Facebook.[X]Other I fucking… Just...

May 5th

Time for a change.

I have a list of things I feel like I can and will be able to do to turn my depressing little life around. Start sketching/painting again. Read more books. Go to the YMCA. I will not hesitate to ask questions when I have them. I will not hesitate to give answers when asked. Clean my room. Get a job. Journal more personally. Adventure. Smoke less weed/cigarettes. These all seem very...

Apr 13th

WELP.

The neighbours are watching. Their lights are on. That’s unusual. Is their door open? Is that someone in the window? I worry that when msn shows the music I’m listening too, that someone will have the song and time how long it takes for it to end. And if it goes over the allotted time, they know I’m listening to it again and again and they think I’m weird for it. Sitting...

Apr 8th

“they fall into bed at nite and drift off to a wonderful deep sleep because they...”

Apr 4th

Good morning, good morning.

It is most undeniably morning right now. I wonder if it is nice out? I sure hope so pals. I’m not exactly thinking too hard right now, considering the fact that it is 7:30 AM, there is nothing going on in my life that needs to be talked about over the Internet, there is no one to be talking to and I haven’t had much sleep at all. Somewhere around 4 hours or so. If my new sleeping habit...

Apr 4th

Days go by, I wonder why?

No, I don’t want you to answer it. I want you to listen. Or read and understand. That’s all one really needs. That’s all I need. The days are going by so quickly lately. Happenings that were just 24 hours away feel like they went on weeks ago. I need to keep things written down just to keep track of what goes on in a Week in the Life of Stubby. Which sounds much less...

Apr 3rd

Something happy.

At first when I met you I thought you were awkward and weird, never a bad weird though, let’s make that clear right now… Just an odd and quirky weird. It makes you… well… you. And you’re an amazing person and a good friend REGARDLESS of what you think. Fuck your opinion, your cool and it’s staying like that. This may be odd but I felt compelled to say this to...

Mar 30th

I could

Be a little nicer, present a little classier, try a little harder, be a little smarter, feel a little less, know a little more, understand better, have nicer eyes, be taller, be thinner, laugh oftener, cry less, be prettier. I could be everything I am not now, and then I would be okay. But only because I am not those things that I wish I could be. If I were all of those things that I wish I were,...

Mar 30th

Spring Cleaning.

Last night, well this morning, I dreamt I was playing basketball with many many other people in a place I don’t remember ever seeing in my life. I was taking pictures with my grandmother’s old camera of the mountain outside of the giant building we were in. And all of a sudden smoke began to rise and there was explosions. Colourful rings around the mountain, like the ones around...

Mar 20th

You ought to know.

Maybe it’s okay that I don’t really have a place in the world. Maybe my place is a lack there of. I don’t have any useful talents, I’m not all that attractive, and I’m an emotional wreck. But maybe that’s okay. Because maybe I will find someone with useful talents like cooking or building things, someone attractive and someone stable to even me out. Yin and...

Mar 17th

Sometimes I hold my own hand just to have a hand in my own. Sometimes I fall asleep clutching my body pillow, pretending it’s the shoulders of someone strong and loving. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep at the thought of being loved for what I hate so much about myself. Sometimes I wonder why, when I really do need someone there for me, no one is there. Sometimes I question the intentions of...

Mar 16th

I wish people didn’t get so defencive when we laughed. Some people just can’t see the humor in the silly things they are doing, and they can’t laugh at themselves. How sad can you be where you can’t even laugh at yourself for being a little dumb? We’ve all laugh at someone, we’ve all been laughed at by someone. And it’s going to be happening that way for a...

Mar 15th

I think I need a moment away from electronics. I think I need a weekend away from people. I think I need time away from myself. I’m starting to really worry myself with all of these thoughts that are going through my head. It’s like a rough, patchy, blur of thoughts. There are so many, I can hear and read and feel them all. I just can’t make sense of any of them. It’s a...

Mar 13th

Get me the soap.

I just had to log in once, and tumblr is always here. That’s very convenient. Because I don’t remember the password. Does knowing that make it easier to hack into my account? Why would anyone even want to hack this account? You want the name burninghips? just ask. It’s from a blood brothers phase. You’re probably going through it too. Or not? That’s quite alright if...

Mar 3rd

Because it cleans.

Just let it flow Me. Lets see how well this goes. This is going to go terribly. Why am I outting this here? Outting? No. P-UTTING. I guess outting would work too? Would it? Like coming out of the closet. But coming out of the drafts. I don’t know. I really like Regina’s voice. She makes me feel like I should live in old times and read old comic books and ride horses to get places. How...

Mar 2nd

Our noses have began to rust.

How on earth could I have been so bitter? I mean, I’m not saying I’m any less bitter now than I was a year or so ago. Now I just don’t care. Now it’s just nothingness. Like this past December and on and off in every month following that. But who cares, right? I’m not dying of cancer. I’m not poor. I’m not anything that would be viewed as a tragedy. Angsty...

Mar 2nd

Survey Time!

Say you marry the last person that texted you, what’s your new last name? I wouldn’t have a last name. I’d be like Madonna. Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in their arms? Not ever. What are some things you do when you’re mad? Sleep, yell, hit inanimate objects. When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? Last night, this...

Dec 22nd

Let's prepare for the tears, my dear.

Happy Stupid, overated, mega lame, ultra fucking dumb Valentines day. I’m going to The Forks. I swear, if I see people macking on each other ALLL while I am there, I am going to hurl. I am not saying this out of my unlucky, bitter, single heart. I am saying this because it is true. I detest this season and have for years. I honestly am unimpressed with what ever event made this date come...

Feb 14th

Soft to the touch

Jan 12th

Yeeno.

I hate boys.

Dec 30th

Cops that kill.

In just 2 short days (not including this) it is 2009. That is right kids, TWO THOUSAND NINE. It has been 16 years since I was born, 9 years since the world was to have come to an end, it is 3 years until the world will end again. It has been 3 years since I fell in love, 2 years since I met one of the closest and funniest people I will ever have the honour of coming in contact with, 8 months since...

Dec 30th